Your 21st

At long last we finally managed to go out and celebrate your upcoming 21st. How time flies. 4 years seemed like yesterday when we used to talk about the time when I can finally asked for your hand. Well not marriage yet but to take you out on dates. It is a simple affair, without the bells and whistles of a pompous royal trip.

Just plain simplicity of taking the train for lunch at Nando's spending our book vouchers at Kinokuniya and ending it with a trip to the park under the hot sun. Yes the world might think that we are crazy to spend time together sitting on the grass under the blazing afternoon heat, but hey, its the fun of being adventurous with you that makes our relationship special. Not only that, we had moments of 'copyright infringement', whereby we could seemingly read each other's mind especially for the past year.

Words cannot describe how much fun I had with you. As you turn 21 in a week's time, know that God is with you every step of the way. He saw you through hard times and He will constantly be there for you. As we wait on God, let us constantly look upon Him with hope and gladness. It is solely His grace and favour which saw us through thick and thin, through our conflicts and misunderstandings. Only by His grace that we could love each other more despite the countless conflicts we had.

Thank you for your companionship throughout these 4 years. And thank you for being my personal editor. God only knows what I'll be without you. Happy 21st.

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It's a Blue World

Empty, emotionless, sad, I can't describe how I'm feeling right now. Have we lost each other permanently, for eternity? How long will this go on?

"Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone. We find it with another." -Thomas Merton

Guide to Christian Worship

Ever wondered or noticed how Christians worship? If not, drop by a church this Sunday, take out a notebook and write down your observations ;-)

Surrender

I can never imagine us making this decision, this moment which we both dreaded. Prior to this, it all seemed so surreal, so wonderful. We thought it was God-ordained, approved and with His favour. But then, reality strikes hard.

What can we do now except to trust in His sovereignity? Do we want to let our will take precedence over God's, or do we want to live a surrendered life? 3 and a half years just gone by, and though initially things looked brighter, it was sadly not meant to be. In fact, it feels as if time was wasted, vanquished.

What the future holds I know not. But what I'm certain is that in the end as we entrust our relationship to God, He will know what's best for us.

With my hopes and desires, burned on the altar, the ashes scattered, LORD have your way with us.

“God never witholds from His child that which His love and wisdom call good. God's refusals are always merciful -- "severe mercies" at times but mercies all the same. God never denies us our hearts desire except to give us something better.” 
― Elisabeth Elliot

For the love of....History?

Next to Zoology, History is my passion in life and vice versa. However unlike Zoology in which I'm unable to practice due to not achieving the desired grade requirements back in secondary school(read, M-A-T-H-S), History does not require certain academic requirements. All that is required is inquisitiveness, an open mind and above all, interest.

Today, I bought Bernard Lewis' "The Middle East: 2,000 Years of History from The Rise of Christianity to the Present Day". Little would I realise that Bernard Lewis is according to Wikipedia, 'a widely read expert on the Middle East, and is regarded as one of the West's leading scholars of that region. He specializes in the history of Islam and the interaction between Islam and the West.

It is fair to say that the love of History, Philosophy and Literature kept me grounded in my studies. It is these subjects that beckons me to the school library almost everyday, even to the point of skipping Accounts classes. It can be said that my education during secondary school years consists solely on these 3 subjects and nothing more.

History might be a boring subject to most but it is not to me. On the contrary, I find History interesting as how a series of decisions made by men, and the chains of events that followed, leave its footprints in the sands of time and affects us even today. For example, the conflicts that is happening in the Middle East did NOT start right after 9/11 but rather, more that 1500 years ago.

When I close my eyes, I can see Socrates saying 'Know Thyself', Hannibal's Cartheginians massacre the Romans at the battle of Cannae, a sailor hauling the mast of an 18th Century Man-of-War, Spitfires diving to attack a formation of He111s and Ben-Gurion announcing the birth of Israel. For today, I can see Von Blucher leading his Prussians in a charge against Napolean's troops at the battle of Waterloo, for today is the anniversary of this famous battle.

If you would understand anything, observe its beginning and its development.
-Aristotle

History is philosophy teaching by example and also by warning. -Lord Bolingbroke

Muses....again

It is true that Reason is there for a reason, and it is indeed useful. But what do you do when reason itself cannot explain some or most of the World that we live in, and that you hit a dead end? But then, does that mean that you have to give up on reasoning all together, and embracing Faith due to the fact that you do not have the answers to things in Life?


God, everything leads back to You in the End. I've searched, reasoned, tested and discovered that Life is meaningless without You. I've tried to explain myself, of how I work, of who I am, of what is Life all about and I reached a point where Reason has its own limits. Not to say that Reason is useless but when Reason fails, Faith comes into the picture. However, Faith is useless without Reason, and Reason useless without Faith.

Muses

Thank God I passed Applied Finite Maths on my second attempt at it. Words cannot express how relieved I am for finally passing this dreadful paper. With that in mind, I can finally confront the next hurdle for next semester, Business Statistics.

On the other hand, what do you do when you know something is bothering you but you can't seem to explain it and it keeps running in your head again and again?