Surrender

I can never imagine us making this decision, this moment which we both dreaded. Prior to this, it all seemed so surreal, so wonderful. We thought it was God-ordained, approved and with His favour. But then, reality strikes hard.

What can we do now except to trust in His sovereignity? Do we want to let our will take precedence over God's, or do we want to live a surrendered life? 3 and a half years just gone by, and though initially things looked brighter, it was sadly not meant to be. In fact, it feels as if time was wasted, vanquished.

What the future holds I know not. But what I'm certain is that in the end as we entrust our relationship to God, He will know what's best for us.

With my hopes and desires, burned on the altar, the ashes scattered, LORD have your way with us.

“God never witholds from His child that which His love and wisdom call good. God's refusals are always merciful -- "severe mercies" at times but mercies all the same. God never denies us our hearts desire except to give us something better.” 
― Elisabeth Elliot